I'm currently missing someone

..named Shikin. She was once a best friend of mine. I can't recall since when did we both get close to each other, but i do remember, she left Malaysia for Singapore in 1999.

Worst thing came to her life on that 1999; she lost her father. And I, as a best friend of hers, was always there by her side, comforting and tried to be her best company. I wonder if I did my job well, but all I know is, I tried my best. She was so kind (and still, she is) that I couldn't resist myself from treating her in the same manner too. She brought me donut almost every day, as she knew that i love them! (and still, I do!)

She's a kinda easy-going person and we used to laugh a lot! I really miss her lah! When she moved to S'pore, we sometimes had talk on phone. She called me, and so did I. But as I went to SMAPL, we both lost contact, and I accept that as Pertemuan and Perpisahan lah.

I had my life as usual, but sometimes I did think of her and wonder how's she doing in years' silence.

Today at 2pm, I got a new friend request and a new message, from -KIN-

hi nurul.apa khabar?.i was in friendster that u suddenly come across my mind.and i decided to search 4 your name.
saya tak tahu sama ada nurul masih mengingati saya.

This is how the message starts. I viewed the sender's page. My heart jumped in excitement as I found that it was really HER! I shouted her name and I nearly cried. Huh. So I went telling everybody around me that I met my old best friend on Friendster!

Friends, today is my Happy Day :) Meeting my old best friend, and knowing that she still remember me is such a great gift for me. And I'm proud to announce that I do still remember her name! Ngeh3. Nurul Ashikin Bt Abdul Rahman. Wah. We both have slightly the same name lah!

Misteri Yang Tak Pernah Selesai

Huh. Kalau diingatkan balik kenangan yang berlaku 4 tahun lepas ni, aku sure gelak seorang diri.

Kejadian berlaku di kelas aku, kelas 2 Ibn Muqaffa'. Waktu tu, aku duduk seorang diri kat kelas. Seingat aku, waktu tu waktu prep and aku tak tau mane sume classmate aku pergi. Apa yang pasti, aku duduk seorang diri kat meja aku, buat homework. Tetiba dak-dak putera masuk kelas tu ikut pintu belakang. Bising jadinya kelas tu. Tak concentrate aku nak buat kerja. Dalam hati aku waktu tu, sebenarnya aku menyumpah-nyumpah diorang sebab buat bising and ganggu ketenteraman awam. Aku pun tolehla belakang, nak tengok insan-insan yang buat bising tu. Hmmm.. Bukan budak kelas aku je ade, tapi budak kelas lain jugak. Sabar Fad..

Aku pun terus memekakkan telinga and teruskan kerja aku. Makin lama makin menjadi pulak bising tu. Aku pun toleh belakang sekali lagi, and jeling kat diorang. Tu kononnya amaran pertama la. Haha. And lepas tu aku dengar pulak ada di antara mereka yang seolah-olah menghalau aku. Aku pun bermonolog la. Aik, ape kes plak aku yang kene keluar? Ni kelas aku, and aku nak buat kerja! Dalam hati aku membebel berpanjangan. Panas je hati waktu tu sebenarnya. Bising sangat!

Tiba-tiba, pap!! Ada benda keras yang menghentam tudung aku dengan momentum yang agak rendah, seterusnya jatuh dan mendarat kat baju aku. Sebaik aku tengok bawah je, baju aku ade kesan pen! Warna biru! Banyak! Disebabkan kesabaran aku ada hadnya, aku pun ambil pen yang ada kesan dakwat tu, and terus pegi kat budak-budak putera yang buat bising tadi tu.
"Sape yang baling pen ni??!!!!" suara aku memetir, mata membulat. Aku betul-betul hilang sabar waktu tu. Diam mereka jadinya.
"Aku tak tau. Budak kelas lain baling kot. Da lari balik kelas" salah seorang mereka menjawab.
Haik? Da baling, tak kan lari terus kot? Ish

Aku malas untuk terus ikutkan perasaan, aku pun duduk balik kat meja aku. Nak nangis rasanya waktu tu. Apa yang menyakitkan hati, budak-budak putera tu diam pulak. Tadi aku warn awal-awal, tak nak diam. Da aku marah-marah, baru nak diam. Ish.
Aku pun terus berkemas, balik hostel. Air mata meleleh-leleh bila fikir baju tu mak aku yang buat. Baju tu baju baru, mak aku buat waktu awal-awal naik sekolah. Sedih tak terkata. Aku call rumah, mengadu kat mak apa yang jadi. Biasala kecik-kecik dulu, mak abah jadi tempat mengadu. Nangis-nangis aku mengadu. Sampai je kat dorm, terus rendam baju prep warna hijau tu dalam air. Air dicampur bleach sikit, mak aku ajar.

Malam tu, aku pergi prep macam biasa. Kalau diikutkan perasaan sedih tu, memang aku tak nak masuk kelas. Tak nak aku tengok muka-muka nakal kat kelas tu. Tapi, tak boleh. So aku pun pergi je la kelas. Sampai-sampai kat kelas je, aku terus pergi kat meja aku. Tengok-tengok kesan pen yang ada kat meja tu. Sadis sungguh!

Aku pun duduk, sedia untuk belajar. Bile aku meraba laci meja, nak ambil barang, aku terpegang satu kertas yang dilipat kecil. Eh, sejak bila pula aku pandai buang sampah kat bawah meja ni? Aku pun ambil kertas tu, and keluarkan dari laci meja. Aik. Bukan kertas biasa ni. Ni bukan sampah. Lawa sangat sampah ni!

Kertas tu dilipat sebesar tapak tangan aku, and ditampal sticker berkatun warna purple di bahagian depannya, yang tertulis 'I'm Sorry..'

Aku ni bukanlah jenis budak yang biasa dengan note-note ni. Selama aku hidup kat sekolah dulu, tak pernahlah dapat note-note ni. Maklumlah, budak hingus. Nga3. And kehadiran note tu kat bawah meja aku memang mengejutkan. Aku bukak, hati berdebar-debar juga sebenarnya. Note yang dimulakan dengan salam tu berbau keinsafan dan penyesalan. Awak, saya nak mintak maaf kat awak sebab baling pen tu kat awak. Aku terus tergelak! Shifa' yang duduk sebelah aku waktu tu pun hairan. Aku pun tunjukkan note u kat Shifa'. Shifa' pun tergelak sama!

Aku gelak bukan apa, pelik sungguh cara 'pesalah' tu nak minta maaf. Lawa sangat note yang ditulis tu! Siap ber'sticker' lagi! Hadoi.. Macam-macamlah yang diterangkan dalam note tu. Menurut 'pesalah' tu, diorang tensen sebab aku duduk dekat kelas tu, sedangkan diorang nak main-main dalam kelas tu. So die buat macam tu sekadar untuk buat aku tinggalkan kelas. Alamak bro, salah cara la! And kelas bukan tempat main-main! Ish

Dalam kategori lelaki, tulisan 'pesalah' tu boleh dianggap lawa la. Kemas. Aku ingat lagi camne tulisan die. Haha. OK la kawan-kawan, kalo sesiapa yang kat luar tu terasa dirinya terlibat dengan hal yang berlaku tadi, and tau siapa 'pesalah' tu, beritau je la aku. Bukan untuk apa, sekadar untuk menyelesaikan misteri yang tak pernah selesai ni. And aku nak bayangkan jugak muka 'pesalah' tu waktu baling pen bocor tu kat aku. Sure nakal gile kan muka die waktu tu?

LECTURE : ATTENDED BY ONLY ME..?

Betul, aku tak tipu. perkara ni jadi semalam (august 3,2007). Buat pengetahuan mereka yang tak tau tu, hostel aku amat jauh dari kelas, iaitu memerlukan sekurang2nya 20minit masa berjalan berlenggang tidak kangkung.
Yang malangnya, aku bangun lambat! Pukul 725 pagi. Maka ributlah aku memandikan diri serta menyiapkan diri. Berkat kehebatan dan keributan aku, aku berjaya menyampaikan diri aku di kelas pada tepat pukul 800 pagi. Di saat itu, elok-elok je aku berjalan kat belakang lecturer (sama pangkat dengan lecturer nampak!!)
Saat lecturer bukak pintu kelas, aku membayangkan kelas yang bising bertukar jadi senyap tapi malangnya, kelas yang senyap bertambah bisu! Nak tau ape jadi? Dalam kelas tu takde sorang pun! Aku pelik, aku ni boleh la jugak kalo nak dikatakan aktif dalam hal lewat ke kelas ni tapi hari tu, entah ape mimpi budak-budak ni tak datang kelas! Gile ape?
Aku pun masuk la kelas, mengharapkan sesaat dua kemudian ada budak lain yang menjengul. Tapi malangnya, tara! Lalu berlaku beberapa perbualan antara aku dan lecturer aku tu :
LECTURER : what makes you choose *PE?
-aku terkesima. alamak! soalan waktu aku interview dulu! ape aku nak jawab ni?! maka aku pun melalut sebagaimana aku melalut waktu interview dulu..
AKU : oh..i found that this course suits me and i prefer doing drilling than ohers.. i have the sense that i can do the job well..
-astaghfirullah..nampak tak macam mana aku melalut? gabra gile!! tak pasal-pasal aku cakap aku nak wat drilling!!
LECTURER : OK then..

Aku pun duduk, selak-selak lecture notes (berlakon je ni! Nak sorok gelabah! )
LECTURER : where did we stop?
-sah! memang lecturer ni nak uji aku!
Aku pun cari la, bahagian yang last sekali diajar. ahaa.jumpe pun!
AKU : we stopped at solute-solvent interactions.
-dalam hati : i guess! mati aku kalau salah!
LECTURER : did we? hmmm..

Die jalan ke arah aku, mintak lecture note aku. Die selak punye selak..pastu cakap :
LECTURER : i've taught you this, this, and this. And here we stopped, colligative properties, right?
-huhu..sedihnya..colligative prop tu punyela jauh dari solute-solvent interaction tu..malu aku tau tak..

Da tak dapat tahan gelabah, aku pun mintak excuse dari lecturer. Aku cakap aku nak cari budak-budak lain. Kot-kot la diorang ingat kelas kat tempat lain ke (tapi salah kelas merupakan satu benda yang mustahil untuk berlaku!) Agak-agak 5 minit, aku masuk balik kelas, geleng-geleng kepala menandakan aku tak jumpe dak-dak lain. Bile jam da pukul 820 pagi, lecturer tu pun berangkat, mengizinkan aku pergi jugak. Tapi sebelum die keluar tu, die ade cakap something yang mana mengguris perasaan aku sebagai golongan yang bersalah. Ish

Setelah selidik punya selidik, aku pun dapat tau yang membe-membe aku ni dapat tau yang lecture pagi tu kene cancel. Haik? Kalau ye kene cancel, tak kan lecturer datang kelas kot? Rupa-rupanya ada di antara kami yang salah faham..

Begitulah ceritanya. Hebat bukan? Disebabkan salah faham, semua orang tak datang lecture. And macam mane pulak aku boleh datang lecture? Ini berikutan aku duduk jauh dari semua coursemate aku, mahu yang lelaki ataupun perempuan. And berita tentang lecture yang kene cancel tu disebar dari mulut ke mulut. Mulut aku takde kat situ, maka aku tak tau la! Haha!

Apa-apa pun, aku rasa tak patutla kalau aku salahkan orang yang salah faham tu, sebab kesalahan tu bukanlah disengajakan. Cuma, berhati-hatila bile dapat info dari lecturer lepas ni. Kalau tak pasti, jumpe lecturer lagi sekali. Tak rugi kalau buat macam tu, daripada lecturer marah, and orang lain tak dapat blaja. Huhu..

Kawan-kawan kat luar tu, jadikanlah kisah ini sebagai iktibar ya..

I never went up a hill before!

It's true! I never went up a hill before! But I'd just did this morning :D actually I'm quite confused of what term should I use to name this you-know-what-I-mean. Jungle tracking? Expedition? Or wind-eating? Huhu~

Waking up at 730 in holidays is quite a bizarre for me, but I really DID that bizarre on that day. Me and my sis Hanim then went to Raju's Restaurant and there we met her ex-students (there were 6 of them) and of course, we had our breakfast :D

We started our expedition at 950am and as I first step into the forest, I realized why green is my favourite colour. This is because green has never been an eyesore to me! Hehe! And, climbing the hill was really tiring but I DID enjoy it very much!

Walk, walk, walk and there we were, at the suspension bridge. Then we walked and walked, we met the bunians. Haha! I can't remember well la, but all I can remember is, we managed to escape the forest around 12 la,

Hey friends, words can't describe my excitement, but pics really do!

Learn How to Design Your Own Layout :)

I don't now why I'm so addicted to this. All I know is, I enjoy doing it very much as here is where I find my real satisfaction. Wow.

So how 'bout you? Here I'd like to give you some tutorials on this-so-called layout designing.

FIRST STEP (image background)
Get a background for your layout. You can get it from the search engine or even from your own folder.
Get your background URL by hosting it at www.imageshack.us
Copy the image URL (direct link to image)

SECOND STEP (css coding)
To generate your css code,click "css code generator" link provided in my friendster page, in About Me section.
Paste your image URL at the space provided.
THIRD STEP (generating code)
Start designing your layout.
Click "Generate Code" to get your css code.
or, click "Preview Code" to view your becoming new layout.
Copy the code.

FINAL STEP
Paste the code at the css section in your "Customize Page"
Click save. (make sure that your profile is set to Safe Mode:NO)
You can now view your new layout :)

NOTES:
If you want to re-correct certain colour in your layout,you don't have to generate a new code of entire layout. All you have to do is replace the old colour code with the new one. Where to get the code? Just click the "Hex Colours" link provided in my friendster page :) And make sure that the code is started with #
Eg: #000000 for black and #ffffff for white
To discover more,just click the links provided there :) But I find that SPIDERTUBE and SPIDER LAYOUT is much exciting than the others laa.

May Birthday Party

I missed my friends so much so I decided to turun KL last saturday to celebrate the-girls-of-may's birthday party ::ain::ayu::leha::

there i met wani,chapeq,nawa,belle,mimy,ika,nabek,ama,ayat,shafiq,apek(busan sudaa),faqih,oh i can't remember others la.
I arrived klcc late so i'd missed lunch with them la. But it's ok. At 215pm,we watched SPIDERMAN3(superb!!) . Oh and i sat beside ain cyg. I don't know why, I cried at the and of the story (Harry died!!)
Then we went to the klcc park and search for the best place to sit la. We sat in a circle, a big circle and I could see the faces that I missed most (what-uh!) Then of course we sang the happy-birthday-to-u song. EAT EAT EAT
The day seemed so short la..never had enough time with them..
nak nangis nii..

Anyway,slamat ari jadi kwn2 ku cyg, and I'll be praying the best for y'all, I LOVE Y'ALL

UTP vs I can still..

Voila. I mange to make my self here, in Universiti Teknologi Petronas,doing Petroleum Engneering, But for this whole year I have to finish my foundationn study before proceeding to my undergraduate study next year.

Being here for just 4 months is a great cahallenge for me. Here is the place where I have to keep doing my revision, and not duing the examination week only. Here is laso the place where I where I have to co-operate and give the best commitment to the others, especially to my teammates.

Studying here is the most valuable leaning experience for me. The best facilities are provided here, along with the most commited lecturers and staffs. They are always willing to help us. One thing that I thank God most is I can stll view my Friendster EVERYDAY and print my lecture notes as much as I want though I don't have my own PC and printer yet.

I can still get my chocolates at the KOPETRO. Just like what I did during my old days in school, I would share my chocs with my friends when our eyelids nearly shut, and when our ears could't bear the lectures' says any longer.
I can still eat my roti canai here thugh my mom isn't here to buy me such. Instead of eating roti canai once a week at home, I eat roti canai almost everyday! (fad gmok!)

I can still enjoy my days though my dad isn't here with me (I really miss his jokes!!)

I can still talk to my mom as frequent as I want without stepping out to the public phone (wich requires a lot of energy). and the much much better is, I don't have to hide it like I used to during my old times in school)

I can still enjoy my bed here though it is not totally mine as I have my beloved bedsheet here,along with my comfortable comforter ( at least I can dream of my own room at home at night.hu)

I still have my evrything here : my mom,my dad,my sisters etc. But the difference is, I can never touch them. I can never see their eyes everytime I talk to them. The only reason for this is, they are in my heart, and thet will remain there forever...

PETRONAS EDUCATION SPONSORSHIP INTERVIEW

Recently i went for an interview in Universiti Teknologi Petronas,Tronoh,Perak.Being there for for the 3 days EDUCAMP was really an unforgettable experience for me.Here is where I mix with the chinese and indians(proud of this because I came from an all-malay school la.hu).The EDUCAMP was held for 3 days starting 10th DEC till 12th DEC.
I stayed in Etana(hostel for the girls.The hostels are named after the petroleum drilling fields of PETRONAS' in Sarawak.There were also Metana,Semarang,Duyong,Tembungo,Ruby ++++)My roommate was a TKCian so we talked about Seremban a lot.Haha!
That very first day,we were divided into groups at the Chanselor Hall and then walked to a nearby building.The groups were brought to rooms by the facis.In that room,my group was then divided into five(unluckily,I was the only girl in that group.Hu)My groupmates were Apit from MCKK,Fakhri from ASiS,We from Faris Petra n (i can't remember him) from STJ.Voila.We were all from SBP!Em..we had some simple presentations on that day.We also 'played' desert-survival game.In this 'game',we were given a list of items such as cosmetic mirrors,parachute,water,vodka,jacknife etc and what we had to do was rank the items according to what might be beneficial for us to survive in the desert.The lower the point we get,the better laa.I scored 40(which was the lowest mark among us,n i got 2 MENTOS for that.Haha!).Seemed like i was the only one to survive ;)
On the second day we had English Proficiency Test(EPT) in the morning,career talk in the evening and some other tests at night(Critical Reasoning and IQ Test).It was quite a tough test for me anyway.Hu
Tadaa..the big day finally came!!The day for the interview!!Let's see the chronology:
0930 : waited for the feeder bus
:in the bus(sat beside a girl from Kolej Yayasan Saad-a close friend of Acin's.What a small world!)
:arrived at Block D(special block for interviews)
:brought to a room for briefing
:brought to another room(Preparation Room) Here was where I first met my groupmate for the interview and again,I was the only girl!! My groupmate was Kana from KGV Seremban,Shamsul from SHAH PEKAN,and Syed from Sc. Sultan Mahmud.Shamsul applied for Chemical Engineeing,Syed applied for Business and both Kana and I applied for Petroleum Engineering.In that preparation room,we were given a study case(we have to object@agree with the recommended solution)
:Individual assesment
:Group assesment
1400 : TAMAT :D

My SPM

15th DEC : The most haunting moment finally came.Our SPM started with arabic(a subject which i worry the most.hu).Before we entered the examination hall,Shafiq lead the do'a and also the takbir..ALLAHUAKBAR!!ALLAHUAKBAR!!ALLAHUAKBAR!!This was what we had for our first week of SPM.
I can't remember well what we had in our second week,but i guess we had our bahasa,english,sejarah,mod maths and est.I didn't have enough time to write a perfect essay for my english paper1,But i managed to end the story laa.Dunno what to say for my est..sejarah n bahasa alsoo...
On the third week,we had physics,add maths,chemistry n quran sunah..overall ok laa...the least ok is my physics laa..hu
Fourth week,had biology and syariah..A happy ending story..That night we had some makan2.We bought KFCs,pizzas..snacks..heard that we've spent nearly 1K on that night..i cuwik some candies for alif sayang n tisya sayang..
Petang syariah tu,watched movie with wani n nadwa.watched DEJA VU.Really impressed by the storyline.A mental-challenging movie.daaaaa