Maafkan aku, Kucing yang Comel..

Aku ade bad history dan jugak bad chemistry dengan kucing. Mungkin mak aku pernah terbenci kucing waktu die ngandungkan aku dulu. So, aku terkenan penyakit tu. Selame aku hidup ni, ade satu kisah yang tak pernah aku dapat lupe. Aku rase bersalah, rase kejam, rase zalim, sume perasaan bercampur-campur jadi sotong kering. Busuk.

Waktu tu umur aku baru 5 tahun. Kat sebelah rumah aku ade kebun waktu tu. Then pade suatu hari, aku main-main dalam kebun tu. Main sorang-sorang je. Entah ape yang aku buat dalam kebun tu, aku tak ingat. Dan kemudian aku jumpe seekor anak kucing yang comellll sangat. Comel gile. Comel yang buat aku rase nak picit-picit muke die. Then disebabkan geram sangat tengok kecomelan kucing tu, aku angkat kucing tu gune both tangan tinggi-tinggi, then aku hempas kucing tu kat tanah dengan sepenuh hati.


Seluruh jiwa raga dan tenaga kuserahkan untuk menghempas anak kucing tu. Make.. kelepapp! Terhempaslah kucing tu kat atas tanah. Terkulat2 anak kucing tu nak bangun. Tak cukup sekali, aku angkat lagi sekali, aku hempas die lagi.! Kelepappp! Astaghfirullah. Ya Allah, ampunkanlah aku :'( :'( Aku tak ingat bape kali aku wat camtu kat anak kucing tu. Ape yang pasti, bile sampai satu tahap yang mane anak kucing tu da tak larat nak bangun, tulang patah riuk, dah nazak agaknye, baru aku stop hempas die :'(

Keesokan harinye, aku pergi balik tempat tu, tengok kucing tu da bersemut :'( :'( Menandekan die da mati :'( :'( Aku tak rase pape pun waktu tu. Tapi sampai sekarang aku tak pernah lupe bende tu :'( :'( Entah nanti sebab bende yang aku buat tu la wat aku tak cium bau syurga. Menzalimi makhluk tuhan :'( :'(

Buat anak kucing tu, aku nak ko tau something :'(

Ko makhluk tuhan yang teramat comel. Ko buat aku geram dengan ko. Tapi entah ape masalah aku, aku bunuh ko. Tak puas ko hidup di bumi tuhan ni, aku dah bunuh ko. Kalo aku tak bunuh ko, barangkali ko sedang berbahagia dengan jodoh ko. Menanti kelahiran cicit ke sepuluh barangkali.

Maafkan aku, Kucing..
Hidup aku tak pernah tenang bile mengenangkan perbuatan aku tu. Waktu tu aku hanyalah insan biase yang belum matang, tidak faham ko juga makhluk tuhan yang mahu menyaksikan kebesaran tuhan di bumi ni. Kalo aku diberikan mesin putar mase, aku nak belai2 ko waktu aku jumpe ko tu. Aku nak cakap kat mak, aku nak bela ko. Biar macam mane pun mak aku tentang hasrat aku tu, aku nak jugak. Aku tak boleh buang memori yang satu ni. Sakit sebenarnye. Sakit sangat.

Maafkan aku Kucing..

Maafkan aku..

Ko comel, ko tak layak diperlakukan camtu..

Akan tetapi..............

Air mate dah bergenang teruk. Takleh sambung.

Tetap dan Walaupun

Tetap 1
Life's hectic sekarang. Assignments, presentation, test, kuiz, V5SR, robocon. Tapi alhamdulillah, aku tetap buat assignment walaupun malas. Tetap stadi untuk kuiz walaupun malas. Tetap stadi untuk test INTRO TO OIL & GAS INDUSTRY yang senang gile babi walaupun aku tau aku terer gile gaban untuk subjek tu. Petik jari, jawapan dah tertulis kat kertas. Haa.. power tak power aku, korang tentukan.

Astaghfirullah..


Tetap 2
Tetap terlibat dengan kelab robotik di UTP ini walaupun aku sorang je pempuan yang tinggal di dalamnye setelah ramai yang pergi intern dan sibuk dengan projek. Malah, tetap cool designkan robot untuk group aku walaupun tak pernah seumur hidup aku dalam robocon ni aku berjaya design robot dengan gemilang (when I say design, I mean drawing). Terer tak terer aku, korang tentukan.


Ni la design robot yang aku wat untuk group aku tu.

Keistimewaan : mengepit mengikut sistem gunting dan 4 lengan boleh digerakkan dalam satu masa.

Sumpah hepi gile bile dapat design robot ni.

Tetap 3
Tetap meraikan kejayaan mereka2 yang berjaya dan mereka2 itu tahun ini merujuk kepada seorang insan sahaje.

Ops. Salah letak gamba.

Ha. Yang ni. Inilah beliau yang berjaya itu. Tahniah, Kak Nad. Kawin nanti jangan lupa hidang buah naga untuk saya dan Mad. Kami tak mahu berebut dan bermasam muka dan berhasad dengki bom mengebom sesama sendiri dek sebiji buah naga.


Tetap 4
Tetap gagah melangkah ke kelas walaupun aku rasa aku perlukan sebuah kerusi roda otomatik untuk pandu aku ke kelas. Kereta? Tak nak. Aku tak mahu memandu. Dan aku tak reti memandu. Ha. Gelakla. Esok2lah aku register untuk lesen.

P/S : By the time aku tulis ni, Zai da tepon Pakcik Lesen untuk daftarkan aku dan Mad. Time kasih Zai. So korang leh stop gelak dah. Aku nak amek lesen tak lame lagi!

Permasalahan Hadiah Kahwin

Deskmate waktu sekolah nak kahwin, so aku n Zai dok fikir apa hadiah yang nak dibagi kat pengantin. Trang tang tang jumpa katalog Tupperware kat umah Kak Nim so we browsed it to find a perfect gift untuk Meedi n Dolah. Agak peninglah kami nak memilih hadiah tersebut. Yolah, ni first time cari hadiah kahwin untuk member. Tak reti lagi. Pastu kitorang macam minat ngan satu set container (kalo melayu kite cakap kontena ye tak? Hehe. Bekas lah). Kiut je, Meedi boleh letak rempahs ratuss die (does Meedi cook? Ekeke) n siap ade gift box lagi. Haa memang sesuai sangatlah dibuat hadiah camtu! Tapi bila difikir balik, senonet sangat container tu. Hadiah tu nak letak 4 name, kang terserlah sangat kelokekan aku, Zai, Ayat n Najat kang! So finally we decided to buy a water dispenser. Ni lah rupanya

Kiut kan? Sesuailah ni, nak wat hidup berdua :)

Then aku SMS Fitri :

Nga cari hadiah kahwin untuk meedi, ok x kalo bagi water dispenser?

Dan beliao menjawab :

Carila hadiah yang dua2 boleh guna.

(SMS ni da diolah sikit2 la. Gilos skema kalo menaip msg camni)

Aku pun terpikir, haih, water dispenser ni sebelah pihak je ke yang boleh gune? Ayoyo, terlalu seksiskah hadiahku ini? Beberapa saat kemudian aku mendapat persoalan beserta jawapan untuk persoalan2 aku tadi :

Benda apa yang kite leh nampak tak bersifat seksis?

Calon jawapan : Car polish?
Jawapan : Sah2 Meedi tak membasuh kereta.

Calon jawapan : TV?
Jawapan : Hoii, banyak sangat ke duet ko Fad?

Calon jawapan : Coffee maker?
Jawapan : Ahh, akak aku kawin ritu dapat 2 coffee maker sekaligus. Bosan2.

Calon jawapan : Frame gambar?
Jawapan : Masyaallah, macam hadiah yang aku bagi kat Cikgu Latifah waktu Hari Guru dulu! Tak best2!

So aku rasa, water dispenser tu memang pilihan bijak. So, semalam dah pegi amek water dispenser tu dari kawan Kak Nim yang merupakan dealer Tupperware.. Hehe. Hepi sangat2 bile da dapat hadiah untuk Meedi :) By the time aku taip entri ni, petang ni langsunglah majlis kahwin Meedi & Dolah so aku tak risaulah taip entri ni before majlis diorang. Sebab konfem diorang tak sempat nak online punye! HOorey!

Pesanan untuk Meedi, kalau Dolah langsung tak sentuh water dispenser tu, ko leh bagi omlen bende tu. Sebab niat aku cume nak cari hadiah yang tak seksis je. Wuu

Pesanan untuk Dolah, ko tolong2lah Meedi isi water dispenser tu ngan air masak salu2. Benda alah ni boleh isi 8.7 liter air tak silap aku. So suka hati koranglah nak wat jadual top up air macam mana. Sorang leh isi 4.35 liter air sehari.

Pesanan untuk Meedi & Dolah : Jagalah water dispenser tu elok2. Kalau mak2 kite leh simpan tupperware bertaon2 lamanya n siap boleh cakap : Da doploh taon mak simpan tupperware ni.. Camtu jugaklah yang aku harap jadi kat hadiah korang ni. Tapi olah2 la sikit ayat korang tu.. Cakapla camni.. Da tigeploh taon nenek simpan tupperware ni.. hadiah kahwin dari Nek Fad, Nek Zai, Nek Jat n Tok Yat kamu.. Uhuk2. (Simptom tua) Diorang bagi nenek tupperware je, diorang kahwin nenek n Tok Dolah kamu bagi Ferrari sorang sebijik. Haa, sampai sekarang gagah lagi kereta kuda merah tu.. Uhuk2. Bangga nenek..

OK Meedi? OK Dolah?

Fattening Agent

The FreeDictionary defines the word fever secondarily as 'a contagious, usually short-lived enthusiasm or craze' and I agree with the definition when it comes to 'craze'. My craze immunity system had been attacked by several types of secondary fever this year and I tell you what, these types of fever come without you noticing it. You'll only notice that you'd had the fevers months after you first infected.

I have a really bad EatEat Fever this year and I only realize it in last June. I've gained weight; 6kg, and that's a lot. My cheeks seem like two pingpong balls attached to my face when I smile. Tu tak termasuk bola pingpong yang da memang sedia ada kat dahi. If you have 6 pax, I have 6 layers but I don't know whether they're thin or thick type. Let's just assume they're thin type la, saje nak senangkan hati.

My room is only 30 steps away from the cafe and that makes changing baju for food's sake and going out at 1am wasn't a big deal to me. Dan hasilnya, naiklah berat 6kg. And worse, I ate a lot during holiday. I'd make sure that I had my meals completely from breakfast to supper though sometimes I had my day started at 12pm or 1pm. By the way, the same thing happened to Fitri. These are what my family commented on him last June (after not seeing him for more than 2 years) :

Mak : Besar kan Fit sekarang..

Kakak II : Sihat Fit tu sekarang eh..

Abg Ipar I : Nor's friend has put on weight..

Adik : Abg Fit da gemuk.. die kene pakai bengkung.

Aku konfem yang lain simpan komen dalam hati je (thanx to Dibah yang gila berterus terang). But that's what makes us both bestfriends. And a couple. Hohe. Kalau keluar same pun mata melilau tengok kedai makan. And we aim for cheap stalls, as we aim to eat everything. Bile story kat Kak Ida yang kitorang makan seharian, die cakap : 'Haa, memang sesuai benar lah tu. Nanti sama2 gemuk.'

But Fitri has obviously gained his weight. Tengoklah ni

This was in 2005.

And this was in 2008. He has that large-sized ball in his tummy. He says it's cute to have that ball inside. Grr

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Don't know lah, I eat to much now.

I had 1pin of basking robing last 4 days; shared with 2 others. But I ate most of it.

I had 2 mini magnum last 3 days.

And a minimum of 2 bijik durian kelmarin. Makan buffet dowh

Hmmm. Too much calory and that's not good for your hati and badan and darah and sume bende Fado..

...when Love Story strikes Viva...

NOTE : Please bear in mind that I do not own a car nor a Viva and do leave a comment by ending your comment with the above title. Thank Youu :)

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A friend of mine shared a video clip in Facebook and as I saw the words PIANO and CELLO in the song description, I made a guess that the song would be really COOL. And yes it is, the song made me hypnotized. John Schmidt (of Coldplay) played the song with the most passionate energy that it holds my eyes wide open. He plays Love Story meets Viva la Vida in this song and assisted by a cellist, as passionate as him; this makes the song really holiao!! lah.

I used to watch The Corrs Unplugged video everyday but now I think I no longer need to spend so much time on the video as I have a new and max-satisfying vid by John Schmidt. You guys should take a try and I bet you won't regret it lah! (Dah macam promot ape je aku nih)

Dengar jangan tak dengar ok!

And my comment goes like this :

I get HYPNOTIZED when Love Story strikes my viva that I found myself hard blink; not even once.

How bout yours?

PPSMI and my dad as the minister

I feel like writing my own opinion after reading Ain's post on this matter. She obviously supports the government's approach in teaching maths and science in English. Well here goes my says..

It is understood that the government had this approach implemented back in 2003 in order to increase the English competency amongst the students. And now it has been 6 years since its first inception (long enough for an experiment), the government found that the approach was not the best tool to realize their educational mission. It might be clearer if I say that maths and science are not the most practical medium to understand English better. Yalah, why were maths and science chosen to be the medium instead of the other subjects; Living Skills or Civic Studies, maybe? If you're a pro-PPSMI, please answer me.

Think I'd like to share you a story. It's quite long, but just bear with me.

My father, to me, has a very positive mind towards English. Growing up as the son of a teacher and spending his teenage life in a very educational environment made him qualified to enroll himself in English College (currently known as Maktab Sultan Abu Bakar, JB) to do his form 6 studies. With determination and hardwork, again, he made himself qualified to further his studies in England. He then spent 15 years there, a period long enough for him to love the land and feel comfortable with English. He went back to Tanah Melayu, met my mother and got married. They have 5 daughters, which all of them never missed Abah's 'colonization era', an era where Abah had our brains stuck at the age of 6 with English by a very simple approach; he bought us English story books and he taught us English using the story books. Simple, isn't it?

Only after we knew some basic vocabularies he started to teach us on English grammars. Then, he bought us more story books to read aloud beside him and were required to translate every single word, just to make sure that we understood what we read, more to understand the story. Our informal class with Abah would be about for an hour or so, twice a day. Plus, we have our own dictionary; a log book where we wrote the new words we found in the story, along with the meanings. Now, at this age, when I feel stupid, I always tell myself to be proud of myself, as I had wrote a dictionary at a very young age! :D

Abah also taught us maths subject but ironically, the exercise books that he bought for me (I don't know bout my other sisters) were in English instead of malay! But I never knew why I never complained to him bout learning maths in English. The only thing that I knew was, maths was fun, I never had any complications with maths in English, and I enjoyed being advanced in my formal maths classes. Abah really made my life as a kid easier in school. He had me well prepared for my formal classes and to be more precise, he made my life easier :)

Based on this story, I conclude that it is easier to have a strong faith (keimanan yang kuat) in English before you go for something more challenging. Just to let you know (for those who doesn't know me), I learned maths and scince in malay in school but my life in UTP has never been hard when it comes to a combination of maths, science and English. And that is why I enjoy gaining knowledge through text books, imagining that I'm reading a story book.

And with this, I, Nurul Fadhilah Salleh, supports the government's decision on reverting back the maths and science teaching to malay and gives a very loud applause on their plan to hire English teachers from Australia and Britain (I guess). Je suis tres tres jaloux dengan adik-adik yg dapat belajar English ngan tuan bahasa itu sendiri :(

P/S : I'd once asked Dato' Hishamuddin to hire my dad as his personal assistant in his ministry, but he just ignored my suggestion. And now Tan Sri Muhyiddin's reverting back everything, guess that my dad is the best education minister ever :p

Tribute to Abah, who always make my life easier

I LOVE YOU.

betulkan kiblatmu..

TAWAU: Umat Islam di Malaysia boleh menyemak kedudukan arah kiblat dari kediaman atau lebih tepat dari ruang solat masing-masing, pada Khamis ini jam 5.28 petang.

Timbalan Pengarah Institut Latihan Islam Malaysia (ILIM), Omar Said berkata arah kiblat boleh disemak pada hari berkenaan dengan berasaskan cara tradisional iaitu dengan melihat arah matahari tenggelam.

Katanya, pada hari itu kedudukan matahari berada betul-betul di atas Kaabah di Makkah yang menjadi kiblat umat Islam.
"Kealpaan umat Islam menentukan arah kiblat dengan tepat boleh menyebabkan arah kiblat mereka tersasar sehingga beberapa kilometer jauhnya," katanya ketika merasmikan kursus lanjutan Falak (Qiblat) peringkat negeri di sini, semalam.

Katanya, perubahan satu darjah saja boleh mengakibatkan arah kiblat tersasar sehingga sejauh 128 kilometer. � Bernama

-Berita Harian, 14 Julai 2009

Wahai Si Lalai..

Rupa-rupanya ada cerita kalau kita lewatkan sembahyang kita yea ....
Jika berpuasa Amalan kita direct terus padaNya
Tapi Jika bersembahyang Ada posmen pula Untuk hantar amalan kita padaNya
Kisahnya ?..
Setiap kita ada malaikat
Malaikat yang hantar amalan sembahyang kita Pada Ilahi
Untuk sampaikan amalan kita
Ia melalui tol-tol di setiap lapisan langit
Dimana setiap penjaga tol,
Kroni malaikat juga
Jika sembahyang di awal waktu
Tolnya "free"
Sekatan tol tiada
Tiada "jem"
Malaikat terus sampaikan amalan pada Tuhan Untuk dinilaikan
Tapi
Jika sembahyang di akhir waktu
Tol free juga
Tapi sekatannya
MasyaAllah?.
Di langit pertama,
Penjaga tol marahkan posmen kita
Kenapa lewat poskan amalan kita
Merayu-rayu posmen malaikat kita
Minta diberi laluan
Tetapi? penjaga langit pertama
Tidak heran
Dicampakkan amalan lewat sembahyang tadi ke bumi
Maka..
Jatuh berderai?
Dikutip semula oleh Malaikat posmen kita
Satu persatu dikutip
Sambil terus merayu untuk ke lapisan langit ke-dua
Dilangit kedua,
Samalah juga,
Bebelan malaikat kerana lewat hantar amalan
Merayu lagi kawan kita
Tak dipedulinya
Lalu dilemparkan amalan lewat sembahyang kita tadi
Jatuh berderai lagi..
Dikutip satu persatu amalan kita
Dirayu lagi untuk diserahkan amalan kita pada Tuhan
Dilangit ketiga,
La?. Kena basuh lagi malaikat posmen kita
Kenapa lewat hantar amalan tersebut
Tiada kompromi
Terus dibaling amalan kita
Jatuh berderai amalan kita
Tak ade nilai?.
Dan tiada lagi dikutip dan dirayu lagi

Maka..
Tak sampailah amalan kita kepada Allah
Seolah-ol ah kita tak sembahyang juga
Maka?
Bersedialah kita menerima pembalasannya
Tak di dunia di akhirat pula
Hilang duit, Hati risau, Tender ditolak,
Ujian bertimpa-timpa
Ish?.
Tak berbaloikan kita buat amal
Tapi tak sampai
Dahlah tu
Tak de nilai
Kena azab lagi nanti

Ya Allah !!! Ampunkan kami ! Kerana lalai !
Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pengampun Lagi Maha Penyayang
Jadikan hati kami Suka sembahyang di awal waktu
Gawatkan hati kami selagi kami tak segerakan
Biarlah kami gawat di dunia
Agar kami tidak gawat lagi Di hari akhirat kelak.
Amin.

Rindu OBS dah..

I started missing OBS since the day I woke up on the last day in OBS and it has been nearly 2 weeks now. I miss the sea, I miss my dormitory Jerai, I miss my team mates, I miss the ration drum (that includes the Munchy's sugar cracker for our camping), I miss the voice that told me not to give up paddling, I miss it when my team mates and I sat together in the dark sharing stories, having the torchlight between us to lit the darkness and the wind was cool enough to make us shiver. I miss the whaler that 'whale' me, showing me how beautiful the land is, showing me how wide the sky is, taking me to an unforgettable experience, telling me to be more grateful to the Creator. I miss the kayak that swung me upon the wavy sea, telling me not to afraid of it.

Oh, I just miss everything

Can somebody take me there again?

A Series of Unfortunate Events

Fon patah

Simkad kene blok sebab salah tekan password

PUK no ilang

Skrin laptop rosak

Lepas ni ape lagi?